Making a Cut

I restarted the blog. Not that I bought a Wii or anything actually dramatic, but I needed to make a cut. My website is the mirror of my life, and mine was getting out of sync. Getting older. Feeling different. The way I used to live wasn’t going to work anymore if I wanted to make something of myself.

I’m studying now, preparing for university. Webdesign. The dream is California or Japan when the time comes—somewhere far enough that it feels real rather than just a dream. I picked English and Spanish as my languages, which is why you’re reading this in English now. There’s something about writing in another language that changes you. You learn vocabulary by actually using it, by thinking and writing inside that language instead of translating. And you reach further—I’d never have found half the websites I actually love if the people writing them had stayed in their native languages.

I know some people have already deleted this from their bookmarks. I get it. But Germany was too small for what I wanted to say. I wanted to push these strange thoughts further into the world, even though my English isn’t perfect yet. The design I’m using now—I called it brilliant when I coded it—was online about a year ago. I found it again last week and I still loved it, so I brought it back and made it work with Wordpress. There’s a new guestbook. It’s got some errors I’m fixing. But it’s open. Everything’s a little broken and getting better, which felt true.